Tuesday, September 30, 2014
is that it? - that's it
Had thought Mark Twain said that; however Abraham Lincoln is credited...
Charlie Brown goes all existential on us....
...is what I always think.
Except in nightmares -- er, I mean, situations -- where someone else wants to be negative just as much as you want to be positive.
Years ago after a couple of horrible experiences, I said to my cousin Rick in passing, "I just don't know how to figure out some of these -- attitudes I'm encountering, & behaviors; like, what's the purpose?"
He said, "Well -- some people just - don't - want - to be happy."
I had sort of a simultaneous epiphany - or, two at once, one a question, and one a statement:
"Can it be that simple?"
"It is that simple."
(Head still reverberating from all that heavy thought...)
At one point, was in so much despair had to just watch a movie to at least put off despair for two hours. Had Alfred Hitchcock's Psycho on videotape.
Realized during the movie, "I'm watching Psycho to -- cheer myself -- up." ???????????????????????? (what kind of sense does this make??)
A little later, thought,
"'I was watching Psycho to cheer myself up.'
That's like something Woody Allen would say."
("You try to be so perfect all the time; you think you're God!"
W. Allen: "Well --uh, I have to model myself after someone!")
I got a notebook and some pens.